18"I am not referring to all of you; I know those I have chosen. But this is to fulfill the scripture: 'He who shares my bread has lifted up his heel against me.' 19"I am telling you now before it happens, so that when it does happen you will believe that I am He. 20I tell you the truth, whoever accepts anyone I send accepts me; and whoever accepts me accepts the one who sent me." 21After he had said this, Jesus was troubled in spirit and testified, "I tell you the truth, one of you is going to betray me." 22His disciples stared at one another, at a loss to know which of them he meant. 23One of them, the disciple whom Jesus loved, was reclining next to him. 24Simon Peter motioned to this disciple and said, "Ask him which one he means." 25Leaning back against Jesus, he asked him, "Lord, who is it?" 26Jesus answered, "It is the one to whom I will give this piece of bread when I have dipped it in the dish." Then, dipping the piece of bread, he gave it to Judas Iscariot, son of Simon. 27As soon as Judas took the bread, Satan entered into him. “What you are about to do, do quickly," Jesus told him, 28but no one at the meal understood why Jesus said this to him. 29Since Judas had charge of the money, some thought Jesus was telling him to buy what was needed for the Feast, or to give something to the poor. 30As soon as Judas had taken the bread, he went out. And it was night. John 13:18-30
Two things I learned from this passage;
In the 21st verse, I read Jesus was troubled in spirit. Yes you read it right. He was TROUBLED IN SPIRIT. Jesus bold in his spirit, I agree. Jesus confident in spirit, I agree. Jesus joyful in spirit I agree. But Jesus troubled in spirit, troubles my spirit. How can Jesus be troubled. He is God. Yes He is God. But He was also 100 % man. So whenever I say to him Lord, am troubled in my heart, He understands. He says What you are going through, I have already been through. Hence he is ready and able to help us.
Secondly, I want you look at the way Jesus treated Judas. He was completely aware that Judas would hurt him. But He treated Judas as Jews usually treat a special guest. He dipped a piece of bread and gave it to Judas Iscariot, son of Simon. Dipping a piece of bread and giving it to a person is usually done to honor a person. Jesus honored Judas knowing that he will hurt Him. What great love does God shower upon us? Though we were enemies to Him He still loves us. After accepting the bread or after accepting God’s love, Judas went out. Many times we go out of His presence after tasting his love. What happens when go out of his presence? John writes “And it was night”. Yes when you leave the Light of the world, your life becomes dark.